a break-up

i spent several (three) nights off benzos and just faced the deep night, faced the shallow mornings. the dusk of resistance. i rested ‘naturally’ i biked through organic exhaustion. i martyred myself- oh this is SO HARD. I’m doing this for YOU because I want to live. I want to be AWAKE.

And here I record I have reduced my tolerance from 1.5mg to 0.25mg. In one week! I’m proud to have broken up with you. Now I can use you as I wish, instead of vice versa. Now it’s me and you, not you and (…me)

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